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A Motley Minyan

They’re frustrating, and sometimes broken, but the men in my shul make services divine

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(Photoillustration Ivy Tashlik; original photos iStockphoto.com)

The people we see at shul get into our bloodstream. But still, try as one might, you cannot learn what is on a man’s mind or know too much about him just by davening next to him. But a glimpse you can get: Here is a man geshikt (put together), here a man tzu’brochen (a little broken), here is a man at odds with himself.

A week before Passover, I saw a man bent over a book of Tehillim—the Psalms, often read on behalf of a sick person. I asked for whom he was saying Tehillim—for his mother, his father, a member of his family? “For my wife,” he said with reticence, his voice getting progressively less audible. “I have a rough ‘shalom bayis,’ ” a lack of peace at home, he continued. “She is an erupting volcano before the holidays. I pray that it won’t be too bad this year.”

I thought he was joking, but then I looked into his eyes and saw a ghost-ship listing in the dead calm of the ocean’s middle. I couldn’t even hear a mayday or S.O.S.—I could only see a single, erratic flickering light, a ner tamid inside him that seemed to be kept by the synagogue’s soothing rhythm of the liturgy, the prayers minted long ago by the rabbis of the Talmud.

After Passover, I asked him how things went at home. “Best Yom Tov in years,” he told me. “We had a very nice time.”

“She changed?” I asked.

“No,” he said. “Something changed in me so that I was able to be with her. A miracle.”

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The Talmud tells us that wherever there are 10 men, the divine presence appears. But this presence does not only appear after the minyan is assembled; by tradition, the divine presence appears before minyan and “waits” for people to come, alone in the empty synagogue’s vast, ornate emptiness.

Tradition urges everyone to arrive early to synagogue, although surprisingly few do, surprising because the Talmud tells us that the man who gets there first receives the greatest reward of all, alone with the divine presence. There is such a man in my shul, successful, yet humble. He is there half an hour before minyan, morning, noon, and night, alone in the dark synagogue with his hands folded in contemplation, accumulating all the riches of the world-to-come while he waits for services to begin.

There is something beautiful about this man, something beautiful about so many of the men in the minyan—in any minyan, if you look closely enough. And as long as I’ve been going to shul, I’ve been falling in love with these men, these beautiful men of shul, who combine the machismo of Jewish scholarship and the softness of maternal love.

The leader of our chabura—my shul’s study group—has a face that radiates the wisdom of Torah and also, improbably, the kindness of motherhood. He gently spoon-feeds us the complex matters of the Talmud, smiling indulgently as we struggle—sometimes with a good question and other times, with klutz-kashyas (questions that betray our ignorance). He comes to shul, face broadened by Torah knowledge, features that look as if they were brushed lightly with egg, a broad Russian back that I place as having come somewhere from the Pripyat Marsh in the Russian steppes, like a genetic hiccup echoing through the generations. In short, he has a yiddisher panim. How can you not be a better person just by looking at his face?

But it is not only the scholars, the leaders, who are beautiful. There are the broken ones, as well, often good and pious, but too often empty. But even these broken ones are part of a whole—a minyan.

One man in our shul dresses like a hobo; his hair is wild and shoulder-length, and I would like to scream at him: Get a haircut! I cannot bear when he is called to the Torah for an aliyah—I am often the Torah reader and it is irritating in the extreme to stand next to him as he makes his blessings. He makes a spectacle of himself: He reads together with me loudly and in a way that is thoroughly distracting; his spittle often winds up on the letters of the holy parchment. It is a relief when he steps down from the bimah, but he too must get an aliyah once in a while like everyone else. Doesn’t the Torah say the entire nation is holy?

One man davens three times a day at the shul, standing in the back and faithfully answering amen with devotion. Tall and prosperous-looking, he is a well-heeled professional, yet inexplicably he refuses to make a single donation of any kind to the shul. “I wish I could afford to,” he says with a laugh, before he gallops away with his tallis and tefillin, and then rushes off, presumably to his office. Why? I believe this man is looking for something in shul, and I am pretty sure he doesn’t know what it is. But I have a feeling the shul won’t receive a donation until he finds it. This, I think, is going to take a very long time.

Another man I know can always be found in shul, but never in the sanctuary. Instead, he is near the coffee machine, a sad sack who is forever injuring himself in one accident or another. He is moderately overweight, with a large body shaped like an anjou pear. One gets the impression that there is something about him that is out of whack. To be near him is to experience all manner of psychological and spiritual imbalance and disequilibrium. He dresses in garish clothes, and the way he walks and his bearing looks as though he were about to topple like an old tree. He reminds me of the Sholem Aleichem-type of Jew who is unsuccessful at everything except the winning of an odd lawsuit here and there. He is the kind of man I would like to throw out of shul. And yet, shul would not be shul without him.

After all, what is the Yiddish saying? Nine rabbis cannot daven together, but 10 illiterate shoemakers—a minyan they make. (Nayn rabbonim kennen kayn minyan machen, auber tzehn shuster’n …) Perhaps in shul we come to terms with the broken-ness in all of us: the part of us that is out of touch, out of step.

For better or worse (and I think for better) the shul is my home. In these sacred precincts where odd bits of humanity and sacredness commingle—bits of light and loss, hubris and humility, the hobo and the prince, the schlep and the schlepped—I watch myself and my contemporaries grow old as we say amens and chant verses and see people and things that alternately torture and touch us.

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RebElya says:

Good article.  Sounds more like a Shteibel than Shul. 

IsaiahDCooper55 says:

I appreciate the love which shines through your words.  I am noticing how we are all aging together in my shul, too!

fjaffe says:

Beautiful article. The shecina is all around us but we fail to notice.

Etzion says:

Even the most established minyanim/shuls, with all of their ‘establishment types,’ have a cast of characters that would be at home at the Star Wars cantina.  Yisrael reminds us to exert special effort to see their tzelem Elohim.    

MendelB says:

Yisroel sees behind the veneer to the mystique veiled deep in their souls. Precious yidelach. Brilliant writing!

chayar says:

Beautiful article. Your honesty is scorching, but finally, gentle. Whenever possible we invite these spittle-flecked, differently-dressed men to our home for Shabbos and Yom Tov and sometimes it’s like we have two or three Eliyahu Hanavis at the table. Thank you for this piece.

I also find this a touching article but it only goes so far. Each of the people in that minyan and in every minyan are more than an anecdote. They are a life- story and a history. And as with Jews especially perhaps where I live in Israel the elderly ones often have stories of rescue and redemption that humble those of us who have had easier lives.

espier says:

Yisrael is a modern day Sholem Aleichem. Very insightful article. 

Jill Meyer says:

Simon Feuerman prays everyday with these men in a minyan but I wonder if he knows them as people? He describes their outer beings – “businessman”, “hobo”, etc – but seems not to know much else about them, other than they meet up on a daily basis to pray.

The article was well-written but I wish there was more “there” there. Now, maybe because I am a Reform Jew and don’t pray everyday in a minyan,  I don’t know the specifics of the process. Maybe the daveners AREN’T supposed to talk about what they are outside the minyan? The man who Feuerman describes as looking like a hobo? I wonder if he’s ever asked him about his life outside the shul.  Maybe that’s not allowed?

But what we are left with is an article about a group of people, gathered together once, twice,  three times daily, who appear as caricatures.

espier says:

Yisrael is a modern day Sholem Aleichem. Very insightful and touching article. 

Joseph Nerenberg says:

Poignant.

Wendy Love Anderson says:

We have these approximate types in my (egalitarian) weekday minyan, too.  I find that I am willing to allow for almost any annoyance or antisocial behavior from someone I know to be a regular minyannaire. (And I hope they feel the same way about me!)

Judith Mentzer says:

Thank you. I needed to hear this today

FirstStateJew says:

Very nice read and some very interesting comments, too.  Nice to know of an opinion about being the first to arrive for minyan.  One cannot know why some of us go regularly…it began for me during a Kaddish year and I found the routine a good one. I looked forward to being surrounded by “non idiots” as the afternoon would bring out the worst in many co workers.  Now 12 years later and retired I still find myself going to help make up our aging and shrinking minyan almost every afternoon. I think it’d be nice to pick brains or chat over coffee with the writer of this short but poignant writer..

Reb Yisroel, 

As with your story about Uncle Moishy, while reading this I heard myself say: ‘Darn! I wish I had thought of that! Brilliantly straightforward, this is not only a lovely and (as you say yourself) loving tribute but keen insight into the-what always turns out to be-a fascinating and, oftentimes motley collection of souls who congregate each and every day in what Bialik called called The Fountain, Source, Spring, Lap, Fort and Mother … 

It’s never fails that when I read a piece you’ve penned, I rush back to my inkwell hopefully muttering: ‘If only my words could say something as beautiful as Reb Yisroel’s 
… ‘ , I remain,

Sincerely yours, 
Alan D. Busch

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